I’m getting quite used to these sleepless nights where I spend the next day feeling hungover minus the alcohol consumption! It’s a horrible frustrating feeling not being able to sleep and I know it too well now, I’ve been awake since 3.30 am and it’s now 5.30. I don’t really see myself getting back to sleep now, tossing around in the bed into Positions that just aren’t comfy at all is horrendous! I have been having night nurse before bed since the op but I don’t want to get too used to it.
I have so many thoughts and emotions whizzing round my head I just can’t begin to settle. I’ve had a wee and splashed my face with water, hasn’t worked. I’ve read the daily mail and scrolled through my Facebook, no luck.
Hearing from such old friends and family friends has been really nice. Some of them bringing up old memories I had completely forgotten about. I can’t help but wonder what my mum is thinking up there, who she’s nattering to and will she reach out to me in some kind of way 😦
Today was not a good day I have just felt tired and too hot. I don’t know if it’s the infection that’s making me extra hot or just the general muggy weather. I feel a sense of frustration that I just don’t feel quite right.
My excitement for the day was going to the chemist to pick up some tramadol for pain relief. I didn’t buy anymore night nurse as I wanted to see if I could manage to sleep tonight.
Today I sat on the sofa browsing the Internet and watching a cheeky heron that was trying to go for the fish in the pond !!
I have also set myself a new task of learning how to sew. My friends mum has dragged the sewing machine out the cellar and off I go! I pinned two pieces of fabric and then started to sew a lovely seam and ended up seeing the bloody pins into the piece of fabric and couldn’t pick them out!!! More practise needed I think!!